Words

"Everything you do, you do for yourself!" That's what you said to me. Words which echo through a tunnel of time and reverb around for an eternity. Words which once said, cannot be taken back, ever! They weave their way to their destination with a sole purpose, a purpose to cut and bleed.

What can I say to argue that? What words can I fire back to redeem myself? Is there even anything left to say? Perhaps you're right, perhaps I always knew that, perhaps it's time I give them words a voice and take away the barbed wire that has kept them in silence for so long. Perhaps.....

But, you know the truth and so do I, and there's no hiding from that. Salvation doesn't have a place reserved for me, I don't even think she knows my name let alone I exist. So why even try? I'll just let them be as they let me be, in a place filled with regret and memories.

I can't breathe, I can't change, I can't fight these words, they're stronger than me, they're clever than me, bred from a truth that I cannot run or hide from. So why don't you see, WHY DON'T YOU SEE! I cannot change, I cannot be or die. I'm here for one purpose only and there is no changing that.

So, just let me be and stop trying to save someone that drowned a long time ago, stop trying to save someone that is destined to suffer, stop trying to save someone when you can't even save yourself.

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