Let me be

A statue is what you wanted, a doll to dress and show your friends to. An impression left in a stain, a death left in a space. How much I hate you is unmeasurable to the pain you caused by trapping me in a life that was never mine. You wanted a cross to bear but you forgot to untie me first. Now, the blood runs down your back and I cry in pain, not being able to speak. As much as I owe you for your sacrifices, as much as I owe you for your blood and tears, as much as I owe you for your selflessness, I never wanted to be buried alive under it.

If only I could kill myself. If only I could end this imprisonment. Would I be forgiven? Would I be free again? I can't give you anything that I don't have. I can't give you anything that you don't want. All, I want now is death and even that doesn't want me. How do I leave? How do I escape my thoughts? How do I escape these chains of guilt? How do I escape this fire of pain in which I burn. How do I escape YOU?

YOU'VE drowned me in guilt
YOU'VE drowned me in your pain
YOU'VE drowned me in others blood
YOU'VE drowned me in hope
YOU'VE drowned me in a faith that never was mine
YOU'VE drowned me austerity
YOU'VE drowned me in a God that only took and raped me of everything good
YOU'VE drowned me in where I came from
YOU'VE drowned me in YOU!

So please let me go, please let me be. I beg you to let me die, to let me go. Please let me be.....

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