The relentless and unforgiving

It has been awhile since I have written anything, reason being because I don't like writing if I don't feel I have something important to say. It needs to be at least meaningful in one way or another. No?

I have had the flu over the weekend and even though it hasn't completely gone I still feel a little bit better than what I was a few days ago. It just completely baffles me how something like that can occur so quickly and take almost a week to go completely.

Another thing about being ill which completely stands out for me, is the amount of phlegm that builds up so quickly and how I cannot seem to get it out so easily than an able-bodied person.

I guess I have found techniques to make it easier but that still doesn't take away the fact that I have had to see this monster for so many years. Even though I have grown tired of it, it doesn't seem to grow tired of me! It's more relentless and unforgiving then perhaps I am? If only I had that focus which it has to constantly work hard every day to regenerate itself over and over again. I guess you have to give it credit where it's due.

Anyway, before it returns again I should really sign off, because no matter how much I want out of this battle the war just seems to carry on.

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